For finally making a comment on my blog. It's hard to keep writing unless I know someone out there is reading! I don't have a lot of food and workout support here in town. I need all the help I can get. So I have not received any job offers, which is okay by me because I'm not sure if I would have enjoyed that position any more than the one I currently have. I have also began seriously thinking about the culinary arts program at Metro. I've always wanted to cook and I enjoy doing so....Maybe this is because Don and I watched Ratatouille on Sunday but I have been pondering this idea for a couple months now. I'd really like to own my own diner or cafe, but that's a really big dream. I would also be most interested in being a Pastry Chef...which of course is probably the most unhealthy, but I would also like to find healthier ways to fit in sweet treats into every day life. If I pursue this, my current job would be able to be flexible with taking a class or two a semester, and Metro isn't too expensive. Plus, I could get up to 50% off in Tuition Reimbursement every semester (I think so anyway, that's how it used to be). So far my only supporter is Lynn, who told me I could test out any recipes on her. For some reason I can never feel 100% confident in my own decisions and need the backing of other people. I also think that everyone thinks I'm always coming up with these silly ideas that I'll never live out (which is sometimes true) but I am also trying to accept that this way of life is me. I need to accept me. I am the biggest and worst judge of myself and most people probably don't really care what I do with my life and how indecisive I am about what I want to do with my life. I'm just not willing to settle right now. I'm afraid if I get an office job, I would be going against my true self. But then I am unhappy living at home....It's all just a vicious circle right now!
Today was an okay food day I guess. I did have a bagel this morning before the gym (and after cereal at Don's) but I did do an hour of cardio and then Body Pump. I was planning on eating a frozen meal at home but after calling Audrey to see if she wanted company this afternoon, she asked if I would stop at Panera and pick up lunch for her and Lucy (the fridge was empty and she needed to get to the store). So I picked up a sandwich and I had an apple along with extra fruit I brought from home. I did have chocolate today and an afternoon snack of some baked doritos and salsa. But I only had a bowl of cereal for dinner along with a sugar-free chocolate pudding. My problem is the piece of chocolate here, the cheeto Avery gave me there, and never sitting down for a balanced meal because my parent's don't serve them and I don't have my own kitchen to make my own dinner (at least without having to listen to advice from my father on how to cook). That's my excuse for the day. Another hour of cardio tomorrow to make it close to 5 hours this week.
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Just so you know: I read everyday. Often I re-read entries if you haven't posted anything new. So if I don;t leave a comment it's only because I couldn't come up with anything witty and charming to say.
By the way, did you get my email about Friday the 11th? I don't have to work; what's your work schedule like?
no I did not get your email. When did you send it? I work that day from 1-7...which sort of sucks but I have the weekend off because my parent's are going out of town and Don and I plan on acting like a normal couple, because living with our parent's is bringing us down. What were you thinking? Re-send an email if you can. I wonder why I didn't get it?
Well, I was hoping to take your friday morning bodypump class... what time is that?
PS. I love when people thank me in their blogs!!!! And in the title too?!!!
Class is at 9:00 am, in case you are still interested... I'll be there with bells on.
I also read blogs almost every day - although it may not seem like it since you posted this a few days ago. I've had an incredibly crazy week at work and I'm super busy, plus there are 2 new people I have to try to train while I have a huge list of things I need to do that only I know how to do and only I will ever do, so there is no point showing the new people. Anyway enough about that. I've always thought it would be fun to have a friend who is a chef, both so I could eat what they make and so they could show me new skills. By the way, I still don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life - I'm pretty sure I never will. So you just have to figure out what will make you happy, and it's ok if it changes from time to time.
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